Monday, October 15, 2007

Who knows what god will do with it.

My mind has been preoccupied with ME….ugh! It shouldn’t be that way right?

I’m trying to figure out if it’s necessary, or if I’m just focusing on one thing so I don’t have to focus on something else that may be more important or too uncomfortable. Right now I am telling myself its O.K..

I’m taking a class at Church and it’s supposed to direct me to the right career based on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator and my spiritual gifts. So needless to say I’m doing a lot of thinking about me. Going to this class is a huge “stepping out” of my comfortable bubble. I know that it's changing me for the better. I’m just overwhelmed because there are some many things/ideas running through my head regarding what to do next or analyzing my actions based on MB-Type and then evaluating my spiritual gifts along with it and see how the two are working or not working together.

My MB-Type is INTJ (click here to take the test)

“According to Myers-Briggs, INTJs are very analytical individuals. Like INTPs, they are more comfortable working alone than with other people, and are not usually as sociable as others, although they are prepared to take the lead if nobody else is up to the task, or they see a major weakness in the current leadership. They tend to be very pragmatic and logical individuals, often with an individualistic bent and a low tolerance for spin or rampant emotionalism. They are also commonly not susceptible to catchphrases and commonly do not recognize authority based on tradition, rank or title. - source:
My Top 3 Spiritual Gifts - I took the test on 3 different occasions to try to get a more truthful result, that’s why my scores are so high. You will understand if you take the test, if not just ignore that part. (click here to take the test)

62 - Server
58 - Exhorter/Encourager
58 - Leader/Administrator

I just keep trying to figure out how these 2 things work together. I feel like I shouldn’t spend this much time thinking about it because GOD already knows what it is. I just need to have faith, trust, listen and do.

I know I’ve said it before but I really do love being a vegetarian. It has become my permanent fast, something that reminds me daily to think about God’s will and whether or not I’m being a good witness. I really struggle and still sometimes forget but it’s just something that has helped me see conviction in my life and I am grateful.

I’m starting another class at church next week called apologetics.

Course description: What is apologetics and why study it? Have you ever thought about the absurdity of life without God? Learn how to defend the existence of God and the Bible through various evidences. Study what the resurrection really means to you and how to apply Christianity to today’s modern culture.
I’m pretty excited. Most people take this class to learn how to witness better. Right now I’m taking it to witness to me, but who knows what god will do with it.

6We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his[a]faith. 7If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; 8if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.
Romans 12:6-8

1 comment:

Lisa said...

I want to encourage you to just continue discovering and learning. It may seem like your focus is on you - and we are often taught that that is wrong, but really you are searching your heart, and asking God to search your heart so you can know how to live better. Knowing, understanding and recognizing who we are in Christ, and how He made us unique isn't bad. Especially, when most of our lives we've been hiding behind masks and believing lies about ourselves. We need to know who we are and what are passions are, before we can know how it all fits in God's plans for us. Keep pressing in on the journey. You are moving forward - and that's always a good thing! <: